Well it’s my turn to go on holiday. A busy time with packing and unpacking trying to squeeze two English breaks, I have made time to capture some lovely pictures today. There is always time to get the camera out, even if time is limited.
Hope they keep you going until my next post. Enjoy xx
The last two weeks I have worked at my old place of work as a temp. As I left today I tried to sum up what I saw. I knew the negativity I felt, as this was familiar, but what could I see? After a hour or so, it came to me. I saw hopelessness.. Once I could name what I saw, I felt sad, but then rejoiced in the fact that I no longer need to feel that way.
After 13 years in the rat race, I left feeling hopeless. Since March 2014, I have found my hope restored through various means to get me to where I am today. Although I have my daily fears (usually around money) I have so much in my life that renews this hope each day.
Today my eyes are open. After dusting myself down today I walked through the local park. Eyes open I saw wonderful beauty and textures to photograph and draw. I am currently in Scarborough, England and a late evening walk, has enticed me into going with my camera to the sea front tomorrow and capture the creativity of manmade beach huts as well as the natural beauty made by Mother Nature.
Have you ever felt hopeless, desperate and lost? as if all the colour has gone from your life? Have you ever felt like you have no idea how to get it back? Then you will understand the feeling you get when that hope is restored.
You will understand the feelings of relief when you wake each day looking forward to whatever is in your path, rather than dreading the negativity and pressure of the rat race.
scarborough beach Canvas Prints, Box Framed Prints, Wall Art
Good evening. Tonight is the first time in a while that I have had an early night, I’ve literally ran out of steam! (Temporarily)
On August 1st I started this blog and what a journey the last 26 days have been. A fantastic journey.
Since reading ‘Screw work, let’s play’ by John Williams, I have achieved the following:
1) Set up my blog! Which I am happy to say has been a great introduction into the world of international like-minded people and opened my life up to a whole new set of creativity.
2) Set up my own little business under my own name (You are enough)
3) Ran some workshops using my skills and training in art and teaching and currently in the process of organising more in the hope of making it a regular affair.
4) Started selling my work commercially.
5) Created and launched my website http://www.beckyfield.com
6) Created my Facebook business page Becky Field, Artist where I have met a whole host of lovely people who share the same love for arts and crafts.
7) Organised my first exhibition and finally
8) I have seen that I have made the right decision of leaving the ‘rat race’ and living life in the realm of creativity
What a privilege to have travelled so far in such a short space of time. God willing it may continue. Thanks for reading and encouraging me along the way.
After seeing some amazing photography in the short time on WordPress from bloggers such as kelzbelzphotography, Laura Cook Photography and Fifteen Acres, I was inspired to take some of my own whilst out walking the dog this evening.
Isn’t it amazing that we can so often miss the beauty in nature as we consume ourselves in the madness and negativity of our own heads. (Please say it’s not just me).
Hope the pictures lift you as they have lifted me. It would be good to see other examples if you fancy searching the environment for such beauty!
Hi all, I’ve been pretty quiet of late as I have had my birthday. I have also done my first craft fair and it wasn’t as I had hoped but then I wasn’t the only one who felt disappointed. There was a nice camaraderie between us all so it wasn’t a wasted day.
I have launched a new card range and I think they are just so gorgeous although I may be biased. Every needs a good card! Each of my cards are original and are hand crafted. So far I have produced three ranges, encaustic, birdhouse and the latest ‘well travelled’.
I’ve also finished the first publication of my website http://www.beckyfield.com so it’s been pretty busy. I haven’t forgotten you all through and I will endeavour to keep blogging! Let me know what you think of either my website or my cards if you have time xx
I can’t be the only creative person to buckle up in the morning and face the rollercoaster of emotions throughout a day? I never cease to be amazed at how I can so easily be affected by another person’s opinions or behaviour.
I give away my power to people who will probably sleep like babies. They would not give a second thought about the candle of hope that they have distinguished with their thoughtless comments.
Is this a trait of the ever creative, sensitive specimens of life? My Aunty would say… ‘Paint your frustration Becky’ but I just climb into my cave and wait…… Wait until I feel safe…….. Wait…. Peep to see who is still around……. Wait…… And then emerge, sore but ready to buckle up again.
Today I’ve re-emerged from licking my wounds of unsolicited advice. The type of advice that makes you feel belittled or incompetent. The type that lingers like a monkey on your shoulder that whispers to you such comments such as; ‘who are you trying to kid?’, ‘you?, an artist? A designer?’ Or the old favourite of ‘you are not good enough, forget your dreams, don’t be so ridiculous’.
When I give thoughts like this time to take root, I’ve lost. I have to dig them out immediately, talk them over with someone. Someone who just wants to listen.
Whilst on a personal development course I learnt that everyone generally needs 4 C’s in their life.
Cheerleaders – these are the people who are encouragers. These are the people who believe in you even when you don’t.
Confidants – These people are the ones who listen without judgement and that you can trust wholeheartedly.
Challengers – (my least favourite) These are the people who positively challenge your thoughts and behaviours. These people are not easy company but give you a different perspective.
Coaches – (my favourite) These are the people who help you to find your own answers, direction and solutions. Those who walk with you side by side.
I revisited this last night after doubting whether I was being over sensitive or reacting defensively or negatively to a ‘challenger’. I don’t believe today I was. When I read this last night the word ‘positively’ stood out. I allowed the person to influence my mood negatively. I wasn’t given a new perspective in a manner which was uplifting and I literally felt myself deflate over a matter of hours.
I was left in self doubt about myself, my artwork and questioned whether I was really being ridiculous. What a complete drop from the exhilaration I felt a couple of days ago, where I was absolutely certain that I had it in me to be successful. What a roller-coaster.
Do I dare to dream? Of course I do. I’ve come this far and I’m not about to start listening to the monkey that tells me to forget it. I am going to surround myself with coaches and cheerleaders who believe in me. Those who love me enough to let me make my own discoveries in this creative world. I will trust my confidants to be there for me, as I am for others. And finally I will welcome the challengers who positively help in my awareness and help me to gain a different perspective.
Maybe then It would be more like a gentle fairground ride rather than the highs and lows of a roller-coaster.
“You see persons and things not as they are but as you are. ”
― Anthony de Mello
I am a little undecided about what to blog about tonight. I don’t aim to be a master of writing nor a philosopher on life but it does help to share my thoughts and artwork to help people get to know me and what I am about.
That, in itself, is a massive step for me as I lived behind masks for years. I know today this was because I didn’t really like myself enough to let people get to know me. Today I like myself :-).
Ok, so two subjects have been whirling around my head and in some way they are entwined. The first is awareness. I love the subject of awareness. My life over the last few years has led me to become aware of myself, my thoughts and how they affect my behaviour.
“People mistakenly assume that their thinking is done by their head; it is actually done by the heart which first dictates the conclusion, then commands the head to provide the reasoning that will defend it.”
― Anthony de Mello
I love to people watch. Some call it awareness, some judgement, but I call it self preservation. I watch, I become aware, I judge and then I preserve my sense of self. I no longer hide behind masks or pretend. I learnt the meaning of the word congruence and, as a visual learner, I pictured two parallel lines. I wanted to be congruent in all my life. I wanted to be, and live, in line with my thoughts and feelings and be honest and open. What a great freedom this has given me.
A couple of days ago I posted about my values and being true to those values. Escaping the rat race enabled me to do just that. To draw new parallel lines that meant I was true to myself, my loves and passions.
The second subject was about putting people on pedestals. I personally find it dangerous. No man or woman should be put on a pedestal. We are all human and we make mistakes. I have a friend who says ‘high expectations, low serenity’. We are not faultless and to place someone in an unreachable position leads to unhappiness when our needs are not met. If people put you on a pedestal the same is true, you fail to meet the needs of others who raise you up.
Tonight I sat in a room and watched. I could write a general description of the people in the room from my perspective. However, as Antony de Mello says, “You see persons and things not as they are but as you are. ” Another person in the room tonight would see a completely different picture. They would feel a completely different vibe and both of us would be right for us. I saw people lifted up on pedestals and also with people who sought validation for what they were saying.
Art is very subjective, it can be viewed very differently by whoever chooses to look at the piece or series of works. It would be fabulous to create something that could be seen as ‘dynamic’, ‘original’, ‘ground-breaking’ or ‘beautiful’. I wait expectantly to see/hear people’s opinions of my work but in reality, the only persons opinions that should matter is my own. I only need to answer the questions of whether I fulfilling my creative needs and being true to myself?
In truth, I find it uncomfortable to think that I don’t need affirmation from others. I am not yet at the point where I don’t need to seek the approval of others and I envy those who have that self assurance. I still have a way to go in fully believing in my skills and abilities. There is work to do in creating and having faith in my successful identity as an artist. I have only just begun to see the value in my own gift, rather than in the gift of teaching others the skills I already possess.
I write not to gain assurance from others but I love it when I get an email to say that someone is following me. It helps me to realise that I have a voice, that I am worth reading about and that I am not alone in this journey of self awareness. Hopefully I can help in your awareness journey by walking with you hand in hand. Maybe we can share what we see and learn new insights.
Just a quick post today. Had a great day with fellow artists and crafters. A pure, uninterrupted day of complete bliss. How wonderful to have the opportunity to complete give a whole day to generate new ideas amongst such creativity. I am so pleased with what I have produced and just wanted to share these card designs with you. Have you found your bliss?
Enjoy, see you tomorrow! Xx